找不到人说心里的寂寞....

找不到人懂怕黑的折磨~

对不起，我好像真的累了

你懂我有多可悲吗?

你懂我有多可笑吗?

突然觉得心中装满着石头

好想好想就这样放弃了

老天爷啊！请你赐给我力量

我快要被自己给打败了

于慧，千万要记得

不该贪心, 不该有太多的恳求

只因为我不配拥有.....

Another diff live....

hey hey...long time i din update my blog...since i cant online often...hmm...tis is the first time i left my family for a couple of week...time really flies..though im begining to grow up n to break away... hmm...eventhough the distance of tis place is near from my hometown~kk... but the environment,the ppl here is slightly different... actually KL is same as KK. the difference between KK n KL is.... u could notice more tall n huge building,more cars, highway road n many " dark skin human " in KL... lol...
well..i study at sunway university college,KL now..first 2 days will be orientation...i have no fren take the same course wif me..so i used to study alone...stil remeber the first day i went to college...it was 8.50am....there have a talk in multi-purposely hall...but i was skipping the talk...i crept down the hall as fast as i could...hoping tat no one realise tat im escaping...n finally i was success....haha...i met my housemates,whom r oso my senior in the college...her name is ah min n another called see lik...i had lunch wif them at the food court oppsite of sun U...bout the sunway college...the schl is nice....most of the students speak eng with each other....but i stil cant get use to it...i know tat its time for me to improve my eng....anyway..i hope tat my college life goes well...wish all of u all the best too...n i miss u guys so much...

Lee Hong Ki

Hey, gonna intro a korea artis here...Lee HongKi... from F.T island...he is so cute when he smile....n freaking prettier than a girl....i love his voice as well~

• Name: Lee HongKi/HongGi (Korean: 이홍기)
• Birthday: February 2, 1990
• Height:178 cm
• Weight:60 kg
• Education: Booljung Elementary School, Yangyoung Middle School, SeongJi High School (Korean: 성지고등학교)
• Position: Lead Vocals
• Blood Type: AB
• Hobbies: Singing, listening to music, soccer, playing games (board and Internet)
• Family: Parents, younger sister
• Talents: Singing, soccer, acting
• Nickname: Cute Defiance, Hairy HongKi, Hongstar
• Charisma point: The way his eyes look when he smiles
• Fashion: Layers (T-shirts over sleeves), rings when performing
• Music experience: He was originally studying both music and acting because his goal was to be an all-around entertainer.
• Message to future girlfriend: "잘해보자! 잘하지 못해도 이해해줘~" (Let's do our best! Even if I don't do well, please understand me~)

wake up in the morning...not noon.. -.-"

9.30o'clock in tis morning.... when i was dreaming tat i m a moneybags...when i was sleeping like a pig..."Buzzzz...!!" the vibration of my phone rudely interrupted my journey in dreamland... i glanced quickly at it...a msg from Novera...i sleepily read the content of the msg...." Yu hui..when u wana go out? Jz leave 9days then u go KL lu..n i gt a suprise for u!! Haha.. " wow...suprise? i wonder wats tat...wei wei..unless u give a goodbye kiss a..otherwise,i dun count it as suprise d lo...haha..jk jk... anyway,thanks first! honestly,i wish tat i can receive something handmade by my frens b4 i go KL.. or jus a small card,i think its good enuf...im telling tis to you..yeah...YOU... ppl out there who r reading tis post...hiak hiak.... Lol... okay... simultaneously,it struck me for the frist time tat i will leave kk,sabah 9 days later... i was suddenly seize with a feeling of insecurities as i began to consider my future... i could not sleep anymore...since thoughts spinned in my mind...altot i m not studying far away, just at KL... but i will not be living under the same roof wif my family...i gonna miss them...n all my frenz here....

act i have some plan b4 i go :

1. spend time wif my fren esp jin lih them (pamela,smth,charis....)

2. v can go pulau or steamboat

3. meet teacher debbie,yss, tsl n coach

4. buy a same T-shirt wif siew juan

5. hang out wif stanley chia,ah lap,siew juan,grace lee,jia chang, audrey n oso andrew...

6. hang out wif my classmates

7. blood test

8. buy another new facial soap

9. give smthg leong a birthday present

10. have a farewell night with jin lih them

11. cut my hair

12. accomp mum n dad go office

13. pay back rm5oo++ to my sis

14. buy a music plyer to my mum

wow...can i make all tis in a week?? hey everyone.. lets help me oso k... =)

Speechless....

----OFFLINE----

Today went to karamunsing wif mum...coz decided to go to KL study....then need a laptop..mum bought me a hp laptop-Dv4...its quite expensive...Rm4099..thanks very much,mum...hmm..bcoz i had a stomachache so went home early just now...n the staff there help me install some software..i will get the laptop by tomolo...

er...im not happy now...feeling down..jus finish eating ice-cream n chocolates...i ate a lot...i raelly did...eventhough my stomach is pain...but i dun even care...jus dun want to stop eating...tis is my way to make myself feel better.....why not happy? i questioned to myself relentlessly...actually..me,myself oso dunno the exact reason...im jus very blue....just wanna ignore everything...im going KL on 13th of march...b4, i feel tat its too rush...but now...im looking forward on tat day..hoping tat i could leave tis place quickly,ealier...i dun understand why...except of my family,i cant even feel any warm from others...i have been thought of having a great time with my frens b4 i go study....but u know wat..a feeling of dejection took charge of me...yeah...mayb im thinking too much...but sometimes i should admit tat...nobody need me here....i cant feel ppl's true heart...haiks...tiring with my own lives now....well....tats all for today...bye..

品冠　<< 我以為 >>
作詞：黃婷　作曲：品冠　編曲：伍冠諺




妳曾說不想有天讓我知道　妳對他　有那麼好
妳說會懂　我的失落　不是靠寬容　就能夠解脫

我以為我出現的時候剛好　妳和他　正說要分開
我以為妳　己對他不再期待　不縱容他　再給妳傷害

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

我以為終究妳會慢慢明白　他的心　已不在妳身上
我的關心　妳依然無動於衷　我的以為　只是我以為

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強　卻一天天的失望
少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

我以為我的溫柔　能給妳整個宇宙　我以為我能全力　填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右　彌補他一切的錯　也許我太過天真　以為奇蹟會發生

他讓妳紅了眼眶　妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強　卻輪得那麼絕望
少給我一點希望　希望就不是奢望

看了下一站幸福才知道有一首這麼好聽的歌....每次聽這歌都會想起拓也的告白....很喜歡這首歌....希望你們也會喜歡....也许真的少一点希望，就没有那么多奢望~~ T.T